My last life update was apparently a year ago, buuuut... Well, the start of last year wasn't all that interesting - except I got finally a working medication for the depression, AND I developed a constant fatigue in the spring. I'm still struggling with it and it's only getting worse, and at the moment I'm at that point where I can't remember a sh*t and most of the times I'm simply too tired to do anything supposedly clever. Sometimes it even feels like I don't have the energy to simple things like eat. For the past few weeks I've had things to do IRL and have had to move around and at this point I feel like a total zombie and certainly can't function like a normal human being, and the doctors I've met don't care at all. It's the same reason why I stopped going to therapy as my therapist was only concerned about the fact that I don't go to work now when my depression has gotten better, no matter how much I told her about the fatigue I'm having. Like, yeeeeaaaah. Where the heck I'm supposed to get energy for working? Most of the time I don't have the brain to do the admin stuff I've been doing for over 2,5 years for Reos, and I'm basically doing that on autopilot by now. So going somewhere and learning a new job? Hmmmmm, yup, totally possible. ... Yes, that was sarcasm. Besides of the fatigue I seem to be constantly in some kind of a pain. Currently the top choice for my body seems to be all kind of muscle pains, especially for my upper body. Doesn't motivate me to draw much either as my neck gets stuck in one position and it's a struggle to get it working again. But, I'll manage with it, somehow. One thing I don't manage with is that around the end of last year I was asked if I knew somebody who would like to offer a new home for a Green Cheek Conure. You know, Pyrrhura Conures are my weakness so of course I said I could take it myself. What I didn't know - and what the current owners of the Conure maybe didn't know either - was that the Conure was hand-reared. Aaaaand I've decided ages ago that I definitely absolutely never want to take a hand-reared Pyrrhura... This kiddo has proven my choice pretty much right. Like, Maisa can be a sweetheart as well, but it absolutely LOATHES hands and bites like a little devil if given the chance. And as a Pyrrhura, it likes to be glued to a human 24/7. Biting hands and being on the skin isn't an easy combo. Also, like hand-reared birds rather often, it doesn't understand a thing over my other Conures. My younger Pearly Conure Itikka would love to make friends with Maisa, and Maisa can somewhat tolerate Iti's existence if Iti stays at least 30cm away from it, but what comes to my older Conure, Devon... Oh boy. Those two simply HATE each other. No hope I could let them out of the cage around the same time without the two trying to destroy each other. And Maisa doesn't handle being in the cage for half of the day that well. So... Find a new home for the new birb, right? Well, turns out that the shipping certificate the bird got before being shipped to Finland as a baby doesn't work as a proof of origin for a CITES II species, and it would need a birth certificate. Otherwise it's illegal to sell or buy a bird like that. And I have my reasons to believe Maisa never got a birth certificate from the pet shop it was originally bought from, so that certificate is long gone. So, yeah, I bought an illegal bird and only way to get it elsewhere would be by giving it to a Finnish bird society - for free, of course. When I paid nearly 500€ for a bird I was able to keep for merely a few months, it's pretty... Annoying. With some luck I could ask for at least a partial refund from the earlier owners (who were the parents of Maisa's original owner - who unfortunately passed away, and the bird was left behind) and they might agree, but at the moment I've been too tired to even try to contact them. Trying to organize my life around two birds who want to destroy each other and trying to survive with intact hands in the middle of that makes me even more tired as well. So yeah... Still an unemployed butt laying around in here, trying to figure out how to be a working part of the society when my body comes up with two new shenanigans after getting rid of one, and when every rather nice sounding change turns out to be a disaster as well. At this point I'm dreading of getting a new dog for myself (Gaia's still alive but living with my parents due to new health issues. Makes her life a bit easier when she has a yard, company for the most of the day, and less stairs to climb. She turned 10 years old last month, my little fur baby...) as I'm so sure reality would figure out a way to mess that up as well, hah. Plus, not sure if I could take care of a puppy doggo with this fatigue... A new birb sounded like a nice change, but life proved me wrong. I'm still having a lack of faith towards the future but at least I'm a bit less anxious about it than what I was a year ago with a deeply depressed head. And considering the amount of people we lost from the family during the last year and dealing with the health issues my pets have had... I was lucky to get a working medication before that. Especially losing my aunt still hurts like heck and I can't still partly believe she's gone and that she went the way she did, but life goes on. Aunt wrote us (the relatives) a letter and told us to keep on going and living our lives even after she's gone. And after all, there's no other option. If you read this through, please drop me a comment telling how you guys are doing! I'm maybe not awake enough to reply anything clever to that, but would be nice to know where life has been taking all of you now. I'm even more worse with staying in touch with people than what I was already earlier, hah.
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